So, my last post was written in exhausted frustration….I really appreciate the comments. Makes me feel less crazy–and that my emotions/responses to things are valid and real and not “silly” or “stupid.”

I’ve asked before if I could be weighed backwards or a blind weight (they came move the output–electronic scales–so that it is behind you–its what the dr does when I see him specifically for ED stuff), or even not at all. The drs office where I go is through my school, so I don’t always get control over who I see (or, when I do–I have to ask for a specific doctor) or what not. Their policy is to always weight b/c apparently that is fun. The only way that you cannot be weighed is if it is in your chart not to weight you (my therapist has tried to put that in, but not effective yet). There are a few nurses who are really good about it–like, if they noticed any ED diagnosis on your chart, they do not weigh you if you are not there for that.

So, yes, why the heck I have to be weighed for my FOOT–I have no idea. I was even there last week. What made me more mad was that it was snowing when I was there so had on my snow boots, heavy jeans, a thermal shirt, and a sweatshirt. I’m sure that between that and my water bottle they probably assumed as I was “padding” my weight (not so–I hate being cold and the appt opened up an hour before I go there) especially since the doctor asked if I was (and didn’t believe me that I had reduced working out). She did give me a referral to a sports med specialist, so thats good.

I really cannot wait to graduate and get my PhD and have a primary care doctor….one that knows me. That would be really nice. Will have to write for real later on–trying to finish reading Twilight and exhausted (it is for a class on adolescent development….)